07 July 2010

what i wasn't told could have made the difference


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Originally uploaded by GButterfly
i was told my thyroid needed to be monitored and they tested it last pregnancy (and misciarrage) but not this time. Here I find this article on about.com - and I am wondering if this could have made the difference in keeping my baby:

Hypothyroid Women in First Trimester Need Two Extra Levothyroxine Pills Per Week Thursday June 10, 2010
According to a study reported on in the Journal of Clinical Endocrinology and Metabolism, when a woman being treated for hypothyroidism becomes pregnant, she should immediately increase her levothyroxine dose by two tablets per week, in order to maintain her thyroid function in the normal ("euthyroid") range. According to the study, the addition of two additional dosages per week can significantly reduces the risk of hypothyroidism in the mother. (Maternal hypothyroidism in early pregnancy is associated with an increased risk of miscarriage, and in developmental and cognitive delays and deficiencies in children.) http://thyroid.about.com/b/2010/06/10/hypothyroidism-pregnancy-medication.htm#gB3

06 July 2010

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This was taken while kayaking in the rain.  I love kayaking.  I wish we could do it every day - of course I'm learning that if I hope to loose any weight I'll have to add some cardio to the kayaking.

Below is the link to my new photo blog - which I'm hoping to make more of a professional blog.

http://genevievephotos.wordpress.com/ 

04 July 2010

Loss and hoping for new begninnings


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Originally uploaded by GButterfly
Looking at my last post ... I should pay more attention to my dreams. Just two months after that dream - that co-worker in fact told me she was pregnant. Now it is July - and she and another coworker are both due in september. I had another round of IVF which ended in another early miscairriage after 1 1/2 weeks of bedrest in a physician ordered attmpt to prevent just that. So I am left with some extra pounds form lack of exercise but no pregnancy. going to work is getting difficult. I find myself wanting to avoid the two pregnant ladies - and that just isn't possible. then, i feel mean for not wanting ot be around them. my problem is not their fault - yet I can not help it - they are walking reminders of all that I want and can not have. So I am trying to forcu on my photography and on the fact that my husband is the best partner I could ever wish for. i am starting another blog just for my photography without all of this talk of wanting babies. I'm hoping some day that will be a business blog - and this one, well some day it may tell the story of us brining home adopted children if we can not bring home a baby born of my own body.

Daily Examen - things to consider each day

1. Express Gratitude 2. Petition for light (see self & ohters in God's eyes, ask to see the role only I can play) 3. Review the day: look at day's actions, omissions, thoughts & desires what does this tell me aobut myself in relation to self, others, God, the world 4. Lift out something & ask for help 5. look ahead - how do I want to carry on (today - the rest of my life what / who do I want to be master of my life? what are my core values? )