20 January 2007

to much on the to do list and no energy for it

I long for a vacation - or even for one of my days off to be free of ice or snow - or biting wind - but at least we aren't getting the armagaden like gales that Europe is having these days. We have decided we are staying in Kansas for 1 1/2 years - so I must make the best of it.
I don't have anything really clever to say right now. I have a desire to do so many projects but not the energy for any of them.
What's my current list? 1. clean back room out so it can be a bedroom. 2. pick an adoption agency ( iwant to pick one what i don't want to do is wade through all of the magazines and web pages to accumulate the knoledge to decide) 3. exercise (to be fair I did sign up for classes but they don't start until february -and today it snowed and i don't feel like going to the gym 4. pray more thourally every day -advance myself spiritually - do the examen- be sure of my purpose. 4. knit terri's mits and my skirt. start on a sweater for wes. 5. write letters to the people i've been missing - i miss getting letters i should send some 6. make some ATCs or collage or altered book sort of thing 7. decide on the next stage of my career 8. advance my photographic skill - work on a photo porfolio 9. work on high maintenance diner blog...
ok there is more but the list is just depressing me there is more
the second blog - it seemed like a good idea but I don'ot know where I'll find th time or inspiration to write it - when i think about it I feel sorely unprepared - mostly because I don''t want to mislead anyone with acutal food allergies into thinking the choices I've made are safe - I haven't strictly interviwed the kitchen staff about keeping wheat out of everything or dairy - I've just done my best with the menu and a few questions to the wait staff about substitutions of ingredients.

17 January 2007










Caugth in your cubicle:
Circular Reasons
Solitary child
played outside
till grown
with children she worked
then career change
midlife found you here
caught in my cubicle
dreaming to return
to the child again
outside at play
~Genevieve
so...a year ago maybe two - all of the counselors in our study wrote a poem called caught in your cubicle. I just ran across them. Being someone that always overdoes everything - this is one of the three that I wrote. Not good poetry -but the sentiment is there.

Daily Examen - things to consider each day

1. Express Gratitude 2. Petition for light (see self & ohters in God's eyes, ask to see the role only I can play) 3. Review the day: look at day's actions, omissions, thoughts & desires what does this tell me aobut myself in relation to self, others, God, the world 4. Lift out something & ask for help 5. look ahead - how do I want to carry on (today - the rest of my life what / who do I want to be master of my life? what are my core values? )