12 March 2006

what i love about the holga (multiple exposures)

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I long to have time and moola to take some holga shots and develop. medium format film is more expensive to purchase and develop - as so few places in town do. Really need a dark room -but now of cours I am addicted to digital.

Will this post as today's date (it is sunday) or will it post as the date I uploaded? I haven't really gotten the hang of this blogging thing - still cann't find a way to post the photot next to my bio - I think its something to do w/ the security settings on my computer.

thoughts today: this weekend seemed longer than usual - why? maybe the vast shifts in weather? thursday night which i sometimes think of as part of the weekend becuase i only work til 430 or 5 rather than the usual 7 or 9 or such. anyhow -visited grandpa and had a nice visit. I want to write he and grandmas stories - I 'm wondering how I approach this with them. I'm wanting to do it for my (not as yet concieved muchless born) children. then came home & made dinner and such.
I worked Friday longer hours than usual for a friday then visited grandpa - then got sick off some indian food. bummed - I hope I'm not becoming allergic to coconut milk i love coconut milk.
saturday - the weather was so nice out we ran our errands (purchased wedding present & such) & I convinced wes to study outside for a bit - so that we could soak up some vitamin E and happiness and I could take a few photos. evening movie rental fish and chips bad choice for the whole diet thing - i really need to get back on track I think spring break is my get back on track time. - not sure how smart this is since there will probably be stuf w/ wes' family (besides phaedra's wedding) I taked to my grandma - I hadn't been visiting her so much becuase I figured she was worn down w/ gpa - but it seems my mom has done the same - not gone over as usual on fridays & visited gpa instead. I think we all visit him at different times which is probalby good for him but we never see each other. this week sometime if my body cooperates I'll get to go in to the lab and have all sorts of tests run - drink glucose water and have blood drawn every 30 minutes or something to that effect.

oh - back to my point about the weekend seeming longer -so since saturday was so nice - today it cooled down and it has been constantly shifting. There have been tornado warnings - a brief bit of hail - clearing up - and then some thunderstrom.
I love holding my sweetie in the rain. I miss having a covered porch - some day I'd love a wrap around porch which is partially covered - or at least has a movable onning of some sort - so that I can sit in the rain with tea and coffee, sweetie and puppies and such.
studied at the coffees shop for a bit - it was odd - some people were in from my younger years - to see them changed a bit physically - but it seems not changed so much otherwise. I really am only basing this on very little interaction though -that and 2 poems. It seems so far in the past that I felt very at home there like I was a part of it's life. I long to be a part of some lives other than my family and my job - I think maybe this new church may be a part of that - it seems strange - I never when I was younger and went to church - even when I treid to attend youth group gatehrings - i never really could relate to teh community - or felt a part of it. I wonder if that will be differnt here? I think becuase of my low levels of energy I have trouble engaging in any community - even my own family except at special times like times of crisis. I wish it weren't so. Ok I'm being called to make the grocery list for the week.

Daily Examen - things to consider each day

1. Express Gratitude 2. Petition for light (see self & ohters in God's eyes, ask to see the role only I can play) 3. Review the day: look at day's actions, omissions, thoughts & desires what does this tell me aobut myself in relation to self, others, God, the world 4. Lift out something & ask for help 5. look ahead - how do I want to carry on (today - the rest of my life what / who do I want to be master of my life? what are my core values? )