first good kayak weather this year

so excited to get back out on the kayak with my camera. hopefully there will be many more days like that this year. this of course was taken last Sunday - this weekend we have snow - so it's a much needed cleaning day.

This water fix will sustain us for a week or two until we can get back out on the water again.
Water is so healing - so energizing.

I'm looking forward to taking more shots from this vantage throughout the year as the trees and hill green up.

what i wasn't told could have made the difference

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Originally uploaded by GButterfly

i was told my thyroid needed to be monitored and they tested it last pregnancy (and misciarrage) but not this time. Here I find this article on about.com - and I am wondering if this could have made the difference in keeping my baby:

Hypothyroid Women in First Trimester Need Two Extra Levothyroxine Pills Per Week Thursday June 10, 2010
According to a study reported on in the Journal of Clinical Endocrinology and Metabolism, when a woman being treated for hypothyroidism becomes pregnant, she should immediately increase her levothyroxine dose by two tablets per week, in order to maintain her thyroid function in the normal ("euthyroid") range. According to the study, the addition of two additional dosages per week can significantly reduces the risk of hypothyroidism in the mother. (Maternal hypothyroidism in early pregnancy is associated with an increased risk of miscarriage, and in developmental and cognitive delays and deficiencies in children.) http://thyroid.about.com/b/2010/06/10/hypothyroidism-pregnancy-medication.htm#gB3

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kayaking in the rain_DSC0003
Originally uploaded by GButterfly

This was taken while kayaking in the rain.  I love kayaking.  I wish we could do it every day - of course I'm learning that if I hope to loose any weight I'll have to add some cardio to the kayaking.

Below is the link to my new photo blog - which I'm hoping to make more of a professional blog.

http://genevievephotos.wordpress.com/ 

Loss and hoping for new begninnings

loss Day 60
Originally uploaded by GButterfly

Looking at my last post ... I should pay more attention to my dreams. Just two months after that dream - that co-worker in fact told me she was pregnant. Now it is July - and she and another coworker are both due in september. I had another round of IVF which ended in another early miscairriage after 1 1/2 weeks of bedrest in a physician ordered attmpt to prevent just that. So I am left with some extra pounds form lack of exercise but no pregnancy. going to work is getting difficult. I find myself wanting to avoid the two pregnant ladies - and that just isn't possible. then, i feel mean for not wanting ot be around them. my problem is not their fault - yet I can not help it - they are walking reminders of all that I want and can not have. So I am trying to forcu on my photography and on the fact that my husband is the best partner I could ever wish for. i am starting another blog just for my photography without all of this talk of wanting babies. I'm hoping some day that will be a business blog - and this one, well some day it may tell the story of us brining home adopted children if we can not bring home a baby born of my own body.

201/365 open arms

201/365 open arms
Originally uploaded by spring_peeper

this is where we are at, still, after all of these years. last night i dreamt a co-worker was pregnant - although she is a friend and i shouild be happy for her it was a nightmare - becuase was pregnant finally first but I lost my baby so early in the first trimester. thank god it was a dream -i am not ready to deal with her pregnancy i know it is trying and it will probably happen before it happens for usi f it happens for us after all she is under 30 and i am turning 40 in another month. so here i am with emty arms. and we'll have to wait on another egg doner....

KC Zombie Walk 2008

KC Zombie Walk 2008
Originally uploaded by darphbobo

i want to do this this year

Aorangutang asking for treats2405

Aorangutang asking for treats2405
Originally uploaded by GButterfly

I'm trying to work on my husband's website - but it's going very slowly and not exactly the way that I would like. But I'll learn! http://caseyfineart.com/

I've also started him a blog - to which he can choose to add or not.

band of colors

band of colors
Originally uploaded by ajpscs

this makes me want to travel....
beautiful photos by ajpscs on flickr. go and visit the rest of the stream - you will be glad you did

empty and waiting......

empty and waiting......
Originally uploaded by GButterfly

http://stirrup-queens.blogspot.com/

steps streaks ripples orange

steps streaks ripples orange
Originally uploaded by GButterfly

playing with shadows and photoshop a bit

i love swirl vividly

i love swirl vividly
Originally uploaded by GButterfly

haven't blogged a photo in a while.....funny that I'm mostly doing black and white lately - but this is the pic I wind up posting.....

baby store

baby store
Originally uploaded by GButterfly.

went to the baby making store - sort of - on wednesday - then went to the craft store and bought some creepy doll faces.

I think it is really going to happen this year. First of all - a beter doctor. Also, apparently there are health care loans for people who aren't loaded but need a little help (or a lot of help) from micro biologists to have a baby. God bless them, and keep your fingers crossed that this is our year.

mission block party

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Originally uploaded by GButterfly

the neighbors threw a block party and invited the city fire department. there was ice cream, which I am proud to day I resisted (want to loose 2 lbs per week - go to the gym AND avoid ice cream.)

HOW did I avoid ice cream when there were 13 yummy flavors? Easy, I took pictures. I actually love taking pictures more than I love ice cream, really I do. If this sort of substitution works for my clients who are quitting smoking, it should work for me when I'm avoiding high fat foods right?

I rounded up the kids for a photo session and they were happy to play on the fire truck and put on the fire cooat and hat.....

Fit by Forty!

uploading some older shots I forgot.....I miss the butterflies already
Originally uploaded by GButterfly

I'm on my way to my health goal....I finally have a plan that could work. Joined 24 hour fitness (don't love the atmosphere, but love the convenience of exercising WHENEVER I want) working with a trainer, doing cardio and keeping a food & exercise log.

I've lost 4 lbs in the last week. My goal is 2/wk. Some weeks are bound to be better than others. If I keep up w/ the fitness and food tracking I can be a healthy weight by February 1 and my "cute" weight by May. I'm allowing myself to not loose any weight over Christmas, but I still need to maintain during those weeks to stay on track, so no gaining..... Achieving my cute weight would be nice, but really after so many years now at an unhealthy size, I will feel proud even of achieving and maintaining healthy. At least, that's what i tell myself now.

I have less than 16 months until I turn 40. I plan to celebrate my 40th birthday in good health. I plan to be so fit by then that I feel confident enough to lead a Zumba class. That means not just loosing weight - but improving my cardiovascular health and endurance.

My current (short term) goals: Be able to jog through an entire techno song on the treadmill without stopping or developing shin splints. Also, be able to actually do all of the reps of arm exercises assigned by my personal trainer. Right now my arms and shoulders are REALLY weak.

i pray that some day this will be us.....

Our family portrait
Originally uploaded by oregonlahar

i hear vietnam may be opening back up, so maybe HOLT will start accepting applications again. I am getting my hopes up. maybe somedaythis can be us....

CHINA boy and dog

CHINA
Originally uploaded by BoazImages

can you believe how adorable this photo is

water play

water play
Originally uploaded by lightpainter

this is such a great image

(365/Day 141) Another Day at the Park

(365/Day 141) Another Day at the Park
Originally uploaded by mindysea

some day.....i hope to have little ones brother and sister and even another sibling too.....

oh yes i finshed my 365 project not so into blogging lately - currently looking for models for hubby's drawings in his book. This is such a great picture becuase of the light and the way the boy's hair is flying in back despite the attempt to tame it - and the big grin.

moon 2

moon 2
Originally uploaded by GButterfly

Hi - so I haven't posted in a while - I've been taking my daily picture - with the exception of one day when I was very tired and comming down with a cold - so I forgot. Anyhow - they are all over on flickr - go check them out.

I was moaning about the trouble fo getting a good photo on a work day - wondering what I could do that was new or at least interesting. Well, when I arrived home hubby had fixed my tripod with his new screwdriver set. Well, that settled it given that the lovely moon was full. This is the best series of moon shots I've been able to get to date - I put the tripod on full tilt - and up on a table - then I stoood on some chairs to focus... Happy day.
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Jan272008_DeerSMPark_0984.jpg
Originally uploaded by GButterfly

All Rights Reserved by Genevieve Casey 2008

There were 3 of these lil deer I was tracking. I finally got what I came for and could go home. I can never get enough of these lovely creatures.